My self portrait project.
Last spring, getting sent into quarantine was a difficult adjustment that left me feeling bored out of my mind. I was never sure what to do with myself or my time, and not being able to see my friends made it difficult to think of any cool photo projects I could do. While looking through my phone one day, I saw an image I had taken of my sister sitting next to an old TV outdoors with the screen poorly edited. Seeing that sparked a bunch of ideas in my mind and I eagerly wanted to get started on it. Normally, I do not like being in front of the camera, but I decided with this project that I would push myself out of my comfort zone and face the challenge of taking self portraits and trying to capture the vision in my head.
Together, my sister and I found the old TV in our barn and carried it out to the middle of the field while dodging all the bees. It was definitely a challenge to set up the tripod, camera angle and position the TV the way I wanted it because I was incredibly picky about the way it looked. By far, though, the hardest part was putting myself in a pose that looked decent, natural, and conveyed the emotion I wanted. I wanted a dark, dreamy feel to these photos.
While shooting was a lengthy process that took several hours, the editing process took me the rest of the day. On photoshop, I spent a lot of time trying to find out how to get the images I wanted onto the TV screen while still making it look somewhat natural; I wanted the TV to seem like it was turned on outside. It was hard to make sure that the blades of grass still swept over the TV screen and the image on the scree, but I managed to figure out how to make it work!
I named this project welcome to my dreams because I wanted make the images on the screen feel dreamy. The most dream like image is the one above of the ships floating among the clouds. I love this picture because it came out exactly how I wanted it to and how I envisioned it. As well, the butterfly image has a whimsical and calm feel to it that I really like. The image with static can resemble that moment where you are falling asleep but not quite fully asleep.